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holy crap

I didn't have my panic at all during the play, maybe for a second or two but nothing lasting at all.  I think my therapist made me crash (the feeling you get after a play is finished) before I ever got the high of the play.  I miss my high, i miss that feeling you get, your heart pounds, you gasp for breath, your senses peak.  i didn't feel it at all tonight, this is really killing me, for once in my life I don't want to do it again.  I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK ON A STAGE!!!!!!!  this is really killing me, i'm so.....disapointed? upset? i feel like there's a giant hole in my chest.  this is really killing me, i need that panic back, i don't know if i should be mad at glenda or not, logically i shouldn't but i feel like emotionally i need to blame someone.  i'm terrified i'll never feel my panic again, i don't care how good i am, the panic makes it worth it.

(Untitled, Indecision, Undecided? I can't pick a title, suggestions?)

Afraid to move,
Afraid to stay still.
Afraid to speak,
Afraid to stay slient.
Afraid to say "I love you",
Afraid you'll never know

(should i love you be in quotes?)

(no idea for a title, someone suggested using the first line over again)

I want to know who you are
Beneath the layers of anger and hate
behind the 6-foot wall that hides your emotions
I want to see how you really feel
About you, about me, about life
and I just want you to know
If you go,
I'm going with you.

(should the last two lines stay  like that or go into the same line)

Too close (yay! a title)

You're too close to my heart 
For me to pul the threads of your life
and string them along in a dance
of metaphores and similies.

You're too close to my mind 
For me to pull out your memories 
And create a picture
for anyone to see.

You're too close to my eyes
For me to see anything
But the true you 
That you try to hide from the world.

You're just too close,
And I love it that way.

as usual comments and critisism is appriciated

1. One secret.
2. One compliment.
3. One non-compliment.
4. One love note, but it does not have to be for me.
5. Lyrics to a song.
6. How old you are.
7. How long we've been friends.
8. And a hint to who you are.
9. After you do it for me, put it in your LJ and see who does it for you.

yea, so i really won't be posting for a while, i gotta sort a bunch of shit out so if i post it will be a private post.  i will keep checking here and comenting so yea, that's it i really don't know how many people will actually care but that's ok, so yea, don't expect anything new for a while

for anyone who laid awake nights dreaming,
for anyone who had drifted into the world of fantasy,
for anyone who sees books in living color,
for anyone who has reached out and touched the moon,
for anyone who has lost yourself in their room,
for anyone who has danced in the rain,
for all you dreamers,
for all you wishers,
live on, the world needs more people like you

wow, that came out worse than i thought, although it is 1 in the morning, comments?

#1  On Stage
Five  minutes to curtain,
Panic sets in.
You're onstage first.
Nothing is real,
Sitting frozen in place,
Heart racing, pulse pounding,
You're not ready,
You don't know what you're doing.
Lights,
Bright stage lights hide the crowd,
It's starting,
You can't breath,
Your cue
You speak as a reaction,
You're no longer you,
But someone else.
Words flow, movements flow,
Everything flows smoothly.
And then it's done,
And all you wish,
Is to do it again.

#2 Happiness

Joy fills your every cell,
You fill like you can fly,
Over the clouds, past the stars,
Beyond the mood.

Golden rays radiate from your ecstatic smile,
You light up the world,
Brighter than a moonlit night,
Brighter than the sun.

Your confidence rolls off you in waves,
You are the bravest in the world,
Braver than a lion or a tiger,
Fiercer than the sea.

One day your ecstacy will fade,
Until they you stay,
Joyful, confident, bright,
And that stays with you forever.

#3 Dancing in the leaves

Slowly trudging home from school, my head buzzing with thoughts, I paused.
My backpack was slowly pulling me down and making my back damp with sweat.
I lowered it to the ground realizing just how much it had been slowing me down.
As I looked up the wind caught my hair, gently combing it back with soft fingers and making the leaves rustle gently.
Looking around I saw leaves of all colors,
Colors ranging from blood red and soft glowing ember, to some still green from spring just past.
I took in a deep breath, feeling the cool air rush down to my lungs.
Picking up a leaf I felt it's rough surface,
I twirled it feeling it's cool, hard stem,
I let it slowly drift to the ground.
I spun around and around, taking it all in until i fell to to the ground in a pile of ruby red and sunshine yellow.
And yet, all good things must come to an end, but for now I was content,
Just dancing in the leaves.

please let me know which you like best : ) thanks

the boots arrived today, and they don't fit, i've been waiting for these for a week and they look even better in person but they don't fit, it really sucks i was so hyped for these boots and now they don't fit.  this is really crushing, i was so looking forward to them, *sigh* i don't know what i'm going to do for boots now i'll try again later with pantyhose on, mabye that'll help but i tend to doubt it, fuck.    

first i can't go to cool beans last week cuz the endoscapy thing got fucked up and now i can't go this week cuz i have an allergy test where they stick a bunch of crap on my back for two days, now tues night wed and thurs morn, i can't do ANYTHING i mean it i'm not allowed to sweat >.< god damn shitty crap. an i really wanna go, at least dan can still come over, i'd probably have lost it allready and screamed at my mom if dan wasn't there, i love you dan *kiss* SHUT UP IT'S NOT GROSS*, i know i'm just bitching but fuck, i don't want to stay home for like three days with my mother, she's gonna tell me i can't do anything and then when i ask her to do something for me (cuz i'm not supposed to do anything) she'll say well can't you do it, mabye i should just say ummmmm no i cant, i'm not allowed to sweat, fugging himler, lol, only em will get that, speaking of em  how was your trip and i need to borrow the nail polish i gave you to show the allergy person i called you but you weren't home, so if you read this and you haven't talked to me give me a call. yea, still sucks that i have to spend three days staring at the tv, i really don't want to do that, i know i'm bitching but still.

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i have to go to the hospital for and endoscapy scope and they're going to knock me out i am freaking out so much the last time i was in the hospital it was because i was going to kill my slelf, i am going to have a panic attack in the hospital i know it

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